LIFE that is. No one said it was going to be easy but seriously! Does it have to be this hard? The most recent update is that we are going to meet with a vetinary oncologist to determine our next steps. We sent Ruby's xrays to be interpreted by a specialist who may be able to shed some light on whether or not the cancer has spread to her lungs and is visible in the xrays. However, they say that many times the cancer can not be seen and it has actually already spread to the lungs. We are headed down a very difficult road either way, whether we do treatments or are not able to. It is so emotionally taxing (not to mention financially!).

Today I finally had enough energy to go for a run. I think because I talked with the vet and made the appointment with the oncologist I felt like I was being pro-active with everything and for the first time in a couple of weeks I felt like I had control again. I did almost four miles today, ran with Emma my yellow lab (that girl just might be my ticket to Boston! She is quite the pacer). Once I came home I took Ruby for a recovery walk, good for her and for me! My mind is racing with about a million things - no surprise there. I am planning on qualifying for Boston and yet I still have been considering doing the Night of Champions show in the fall (bikini though, not figure), and also want to do an Ironman. So I am just trying to get my ducks in a row and keep on working towards at least one goal. The biggest thing I need to focus on is keeping my head above water, I have found myself in slumps that resemble depression through all of this and that my friend is a slippery slope.