What if I can't make it?

As we enter a new year and wonder what is in store for 2011 I think it is only natural to some degree to have some self doubt if there is a looming goal on the horizon. Of course, Ironman is that goal for me. Today I found myself asking "what if I can't make it to the finish line"? I realize that some of this is natural and some self doubt can be the spark of fear to be sure one is prepared to the best of their ability. The fear of not making it to the finish line will serve as a motivator to train consistently. I had an "ok" workout today. rode about 30 miles and instead of doing my short run TJ and I walked Emma for about an hour. Tomorrow will mark the first day I will attend a Masters swim group. I'm not gonna lie, I am nervous. I will probably be the least fast swimmer there and one that has a lower level of endurance in the bunch. The whole reason I want to go to the swim group is because I know it will help my swimming and ultimately my training. It's funny how you can be brought back to feeling like an middle schooler when you get nervous about "not being good enough". Well, there is only one way to get over that... face the fear and be humbled by the process.

Last thing I wanted to type tonight is a recent fortune I received from a fortune cookie. It said, "a goal is just a dream with a deadline". I kinda liked that, so I am sharing it with you.

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I have been athletic ALL of my life, I think at this point it would be safe to say its in my DNA. I have played many competitive sports (volleyball, basketball, track), have played recreationally (soccer, softball) and have been working out since I was in 4th grade. I started lifting in 7th grade - yes, was even starting to learn the full on olympic lifts. I now enjoy running, hiking, skiing, hangin out at the lake and just being active. I have run a couple of marathons, and recently competed in my first figure show. I am not sure what the future holds for me with regards to my "exercise adventures" but I look forward to finding out...