The story of my life lately... binging! Oh man, this has been a crazy couple of weeks. One thing lead to another and to another and now I have been spiraling outta control with my binging and lack of exercise. It's a viscous cycle, the poor eating makes you want to stop working out and stop drinking water and then all of the sudden you aren't sleeping well and you just don't feel "good". This is me, welcome to my world recently. It is a slippery slope, the 'jack in the box treat' was the gateway drug to my lazy life. This weekend we are headed to a wedding - after that I need to get back on track! I would like to loose a few lbs before spring to reduce my risk of injury as my training volume increases... ah, the never ending battle!

My latest challenge is to get in the pool consistently. Honestly, it has been a struggle. First, my endurance in the pool is in the toilet, I don't like not being "good" at it. I can barely swim down and back without having to take a rest. Second, the chlorine makes me itchy and makes me smell like chlorine - not appreciated. My goal is to swim a minimum of 3 times per week, ideally 4 times per week. So far this week I have only made it two times. Tonight I went in and vowed to swim at least for 15-20 minutes (not non-stop... I'm not that conditioned yet!). I swam 500m after a 200m warm up. I guess that isn't too bad considering it is the second time I have gotten in the pool in a year. I know it will come with practice, but it has been difficult. This saturday I will be attending a triathlon swim clinic. I am really looking forward to this and am hoping that it helps me with my confidence level and excitement around swimming (fingers crossed). On a side note... I did get a new "toy" today! I got a new wetsuit. It looks like it is an outfit for a doll, its kinda small. I guess that is the intent, you do want it to be like second skin - but dang! See the picture below...

I have always talked about how "I was going to do Ironman". Well I am, in 2011. I signed up for the race last night, honestly I can't believe I went ahead and pushed through all the fear. It's one thing to talk about it like you are going to do it, it's another to register and then realize that you have to start training NOW. I am scared that is the honest truth, but I figured why I am I still waiting? I am 30 next year and I don't have too many childless years left. Another reason I want to do this is for my dog Ruby. This sounds weird but if somehow she is a miracle dog and lives for a whole year I want her to be there when I finish the race, I always imagined in my head that she and Emma and TJ would all be there at the finish line - I am hoping that can be the case. I know it will be a long journey but I am hoping that it is a fun one and one where I learn more about myself than ever before. I truly have to give thanks to my husband for this. He bought me a new bike and has been so supportive, I couldn't ask for a better husband. Even though he doesn't understand my crazy antics, he totally 'props' me up. I am getting the question... does this mean you aren't shooting for Boston in the fall? Well... not sure about that yet. I will wait and see how it all plays out in the next few weeks. First thing though I need to get some miles in on my new tri bike! Yep - you read that right... new TRI BIKE! TJ bought it for me yesterday. So, there you go - I figured now I have the bike and the registration was still open (usually never open that long), so I decided to take a leap of faith. I keep reminding myself to take one day at a time, even though I am scared shitless. This will be one of the hardest journeys I will be on, I know that but luckily I have a great support system around me. See the pic of my new bike, this isn't my exact bike (the wheels are different) but this is the bike... the Quintana Roo 'Dulce'. So here starts my new journey... deep breaths... in through the nose and out through the mouth... and we start walking one foot in front of the other...